sigh.

I've been blogging alot lately, its the only things that seems to make me feel better. I just wish things were the way they used to be. I want that old thing back(I can't remember what song thats from). I'm changing for the better & i'm trying to learn from my mistake. Thats one thing I don't want back, my old self. I do want what I used to have.

I used to have a social life, a really good set of friends, & be able to get the things I need with out the money coming from my pocket. I wish those late night phone calls I had two summers ago would come back. I wish my old friends didn't have to change & still acknowledge the fact that i'm still alive even though we don't attend the same school. I used to call them my only real true friends. I used to talk to them everyday. Everything has just changed.

Nothing good has come from this, at least from my point of view. I barely talk to them. I look back at old pictures and say we had a good time, why can't we go back to that? I can't stand living under my parents roof. They are truly the most annoying people that i have ever encountered. I hate it here, I don't know how much longer I can live like this. The least a parent can do is provide for you. I don't even get that anymore. How can a fifteen year old support themselves on their own?

Ever since my older sister went to college, my life has just dwindled. The summer time was alot of fun. I miss most of the things I had. Most of the people that were in my life. A friendship can't survive with a measly little text message every other day. I just hope these three years past by fast. I can meet new REAL people & don't have to deal with my parents bitching everyday. Hopefully things will get better.

love.peace
EeeOhh.